I've worked for two days this week and it's been good to be there. It has been helping even though today was a hard day. I realized I have been on short temper today though. Yesterday I was really calm and nice, but today I have been picking battles with people. Although I have been sticking up for people when it's needed. Nobody steps all over my co-workers and friends!
People have been overly nice to me the last two days as well. It's sweet of them, for sure. One of my co-workers, Marc, gave me a loaf of pecan bread that is amazingly delicious and two small jars of flavored honey, elderberry honey and blackberry honey. I shared some of the bread and honey then took the rest home to snack on. Hmmm mmmm. He also gave me a card that almost put me into tears...almost.
When I was getting ready to leave for home it hit me that I didn't have Josh to text to say I was on my way home. My sister texted me earlier today as well to say she loved me and I remembered that I couldn't text Josh to tell him I love him. I pushed down my tears and concentrated on other things to make it through.
When I arrived at home, I found that I had received my first hospital bill for Josh today. Do they have any idea how hard that is on people? Oh ya, that's right. They don't care. It's all for profit, whether you live or die. I then opened up a card from one of his relatives that lives in Texas. That was enough to put me into cry mode. The stress of the day and then coming home to no Josh and the mail did me in. It was somewhat funny because I was crying and stomping around the house, opening the packages I received today like they had done me wrong. That tape never saw it coming.
Now Blu is sitting on my lap and wondering how she can turn me away from crying and typing to paying attention to her. She's so thoughtful.
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