I can't do it

I've had a really hard time the last few days. I have things to say on here but I can't get myself to sit down and do it. I went back to work last week and it was both good and bad for me. Good to get out of the house and concentrate on other things but bad because people kept reminding me about what happened. I know people care and that's fine. It's both good and bad to hear people say they are sorry. Plus the added stress of work didn't help too much. I'm glad I did it, but I wish I didn't have a pressing work deadline that's forcing me to need to be there much more than I want or really think I can give. :(